without leaving a piece of youth

Finally in the throes of shaking this badness off using a nice selection of paracetamol and headache killers, mixed with lucozade and bad frozen veg. From a month of stressing over nothing, to a week of realising people have found me out and that I know nothing. My brain is empty of anything apart from oriental languages and song lyrics that no one really cares about. Self obsessed and self absorbed in this little world, it's like a comforter that you snuggle up to. I keep threatening to turn up to work in a bowler hat, but I think the wearing of a cape with a cane in my right hand would be something worth trying one time, winter can't come too soon.

Probably the weirdest thing this last week aside from all the shit of being ill, appearing on television, dumping all my work on Mike and seeing the back of Ryan Giggs was talking to Pedro about when we first met.

'You should never judge a person'

Impossible statement he replied to me and I agreed, in fact the first time I met him, I made judgement on him because of the shoes he was wearing that night before the assessment centre. The same pair he was wearing today on the way back from lunch. I don't want it to dive into what micro portions of salad I ate and what small talk about nothing was made, but it was an extended summer lunch which lazed into an afternoon of no work. What was my judgement on Pedro though? This is a sort of guy I could work with, albeit I knew he would sledge me for the rest of our days.

Three choice lines from my favourite film.

At the high point of our intimacy, we were just 0.01cm from each other. I knew nothing about her. Six hours later, she fell in love with another man.

We're all unlucky in love sometimes. When I am, I go jogging. The body loses water when you jog, so you have none left for tears.

We split up on April Fool's Day. So I decided to let the joke run for a month. Every day I buy a can of pineapple with a sell-by date of May 1. May loves pineapple, and May 1 is my birthday. If May hasn't changed her mind by the time I've bought thirty cans, then our love will also expire.

musik

• Vermillion- Slipknot
• Heavenly Star- Genki Rockets
• Starline- Genki Rockets
• This Years Most Open Heartbreak- Funeral For A Friend
• Sugar in the Marmalade- Leon Lai
• Lights- Eri Nobuchiko
• Being A Girl- Mansun
• Gamble Rumble- Move
• Nobody Does it Better- Radiohead
• The Living Daylights- Aha
• 1979- Smashing Pumpkins
• Try try try- Smashing Pumpkins
• Tonight Tonight- Smashing Punpkins
  
• Us- Ice Cube
• Only- Nine Inch Nails
  

videospiel

• same game
• bladerunner- the game

schwarzweissfernsehen

• afro samurai
• Chris Rock- Bring the Pain

vershieden

• the rattle of Paracetamol bottles
• the Kinneav for sorting out some ticks for me, we lost but who gives a fuck
• Telegramme studio, for housing messers, Gove, Evans, House and Flux as well as all the random shit they have collected and stuck on the walls
• Lou Flux for lending me the womb room, go to bed feeling like shit and wake up feeling a bit better,
• ordering Chinese food in English and confusing the waiter, at least Katie liked the food (CURRY BUN)