It's only nature to be more than a thousand miles away and feel that you're missing the sea, I hold my breath in the bath to imagine what it's like to drown in the sea. The saline water filters up my nose and I struggle to keep the remaining oxygen in my lungs. It all escapes and the my arms freeze as I'm trying to catch the light narrowing into the top of the waves.
Being away from home, in a foreign country, it makes me realise I had always felt I was in a foreign country growing up in the UK. It wasn't the spiteful things they said when I grew up, it isn't the fact my skin is yellow or even the fact I eat rice instead of potatoes. It's something much simpler than any of this, my heart is in Hong Kong, it just took me a few years to realise it.
Love you all my beautiful eggs.
Early morning sun, All shades of colour burnt out, Only dead leaves found,
Balcony watching, Heartless souls abandoned for change, Wallet now heavy,
Insightful ending, As if they won the world war, Taking the credit,
musik
Bixby Canyon Bridge- Death Cab For Cutie
I Will Possess Your Heart- Death Cab For Cutie
Bionic- Placebo
Teenage Angst- Placebo
36 Degrees- Placebo
Come Home- Placebo
Keeping Fishin- Weezer
kino
Chungking Express- Criterion Edition
Kung Fu Hustle
No Country For Old Men
videospiele
Noby Noby Boy
Wipeout HD
vershieden
YY with all her accusations- I am a good boy honest,
harder faster, forever after, harder faster, none of you can make the grade,
German TV being filled with my favourite ever TV show Galileo,
realising how much I have changed in even a year,
the tofu,
knowing a little photography,
the Germans not excepting change,
being a tramp outside the Schloss Nyphenburg,
brickwalling it with my German, need to get back into it,
Linuxing to the point where terminals are my life and all I see in front of me,
knowing how good Bladerunner,
not realising how good full fat kokosmilch is,
in the worlds of Colonel Ouramov- 'you can't win'
I have to mention Susu otherwise YY will get suspicious,
making it when an Italian complements you on how smart you look today,
One of my favourite games which in actual fact doesn't have much 'gaming' to it. Buried in all of the platformers which I was poor at, my brothers trick for finding rare games was uncanny. At the time FMV was still a big thing for CD based games and hearing the characters actually talk with real voices rather than R2D2 bleeps. But that wasn't the moment that stuck in my head, as part of the introduction to the game you are chasing after a colleague who has requested back up, you hear an off screen scream. When you find your colleague his head has been twisted off and is sitting in his lap. I owe Kojima San for scarring a kid of only 10 years of age, but I suppose that's where my sick fascination of horror comes from.
This game is Snatcher, part comic book, part film, mostly detective game, a complete steal of the Terminator and Bladerunner. However, I will save the explanation of what the actual game is about, wiki can do that.
The truth is I wanted to share it with everyone who hasn't touched it, especially my friends of the hardcore gaming fraternity, we always talk about games as art, but if we don't study the past you can't appreciate the present or invent the future. Kojima-San I await the next instalment, or even the Policenauts Aigo translation.
I fall over and laugh at myself, I dust off the snow on my coat and hair and pick up my glasses. It feels a million years since I was clutching at my copy of Norwegian Wood and beating myself up for my love of that girl. I feel like passing out and I lean backwards until my legs snap and I'm laying in the snow. The cold eats me up and spits me back out with nothing inside.
It snows some more, no one can find me underneath it all, I've never felt so content.
musik
Powder Blue- Elbow
Don't Mix Your Drinks- Elbow
Rebellions (lies)- The Arcade Fire
Take It Easy (Love Nothing)- Bright Eyes
videospiele
GTA IV
schwarzweissfernsehen
Germany's Next Model
vershieden
the random Chinese girl teaching me mandarin for her to slam the table when she said success, very good,
Niko- nobody fucks with my family,
amazon.co.uk for making me spend money
Heidi Klum when she walks in, not when she opens her mouth and German comes out,
not realising I couldn't speak German when talking to the technicians in one of the operations rooms,
seeing a square bathtub,
spending 2 hours shutting down the server room,
the girl walking while reading down SendlingStr, very hot but walking into everyone,
Cultural Observation No. 18 I met a French girl when I was holidaying in Japan, she explained to me in quite an amusing way how German people speak. It was a touch racist but I did find it funny because she had a wonderful laugh and wasn't like the rest of the Cobra Kai's in the youth hostel. The other thing she explained to me was crossing the roads, in Germany and Japan, even if there are no cars on the road, under any circumstances you never cross the road. Watching them wait at the lights while I jog past and wave can feel a bit Monty Python-esque.
Cultural Observation No. 232 Germany like Japan always seems to have groups of teenage boys/guys that seem to all dress the same. I don't mean similar but the same. On the train today three lads, same style leather jacket, same colour, same pair of stone washed jeans. I would have looked harder and I probably noticed the same hair cuts. Thankfully their shoes were al different.
I slid a piece of paper under the door, on it I had written how much I was in love with her. I kissed it before I slid under the table and left without saying a word. Outside it wanted to rain but it was a beautifully bright day, a bunch of kids were playing in the street trying to unhook the cover of the fire hydrant.
She called me a few hours later after she had woken, that was the last time we ever spoke to each other. That was never by design, so I couldn't regret anything.
musik
Drone- Rise Against
Kotov Syndrome- Rise Against
Injection- Rise Against
Bionic- Placebo
Beverly Hills- Weezer
1979- Smashing Pumpkins
kino
Ratatouille
Ghost In The Shell
Bladerunner Final Cut
Tropic Thunder
schwarzweissfernsehen
24- day 7
Battlestar Galactica- Series 4
Band Of Brothers
vershieden
Dumplings ala Susu, she's a good chef,
falling down a mountain that is covered in snow (rather ice) with plastic attached to my feet,
where you can
not being able to make up my mind if I fancy Jennifer Garner, (survey current says uh uh)
Su Chen with her glasses, well cool
getting a good nights sleep for once,
and then spending a week not sleeping and staying at work for most of it.
good chat with the manager, maybe there is hope for us,
learning that Janet has a secret blog which is probably filled with her sexploits
finding the best Chinese super market in Munich,
being able to go home for a weekend,
talking to a German girl about her sex life, err yeah makes for good readings.
losing another notch on my belt,
getting that macintosh ive been after
registering in Germs, another notch on my move here, no info, just get into it,
not being shocked at the cost of things above 100 euro out here,
