When its out it's hot, my skin browns instantly like its in an oven, but this is something I can't complain about. I wrote a while back trying to catch my steaming breath in my hands, but maybe I was wrong. I was spending my whole life trying to stay in the cold, laying in the snow passing out and falling asleep. I could easily pass out in the Englischer Garten and die of sunstroke.
I remember back in November picking up a book which changed my attitude to life and most importantly gave me a bit of structure to it all. I was told to make some goals and at the time I quietly whispered them to myself and gave me a year to achieve them.
I look back 6 months and it's time to make some new ones. No suggestions, I know what I need to do.
Love you all my beautiful eggs.
What a life it would be
If you would come to mine for tea
I'll pick you up at half past three
we'll have lasagne
I'll treat you like a Queen
I'll give you strawberries and cream
then your friends will all go green
For my lasagne
musik
- Step Out- Oasis
- Underneath the Sky Tonight- Oasis
- Cum On Feel the Noize- Oasis
- Talk Tonight- Oasis
- District- Sick of It All
- Dig Your Own Hole- The Chemical Brothers
- Out of Routine- Idlewild
- Cheated Hearts- Susu Chen
- Stay the Same- Idlewild
- Witness the Fitness- Roots Manuva
- Supo Mungam- Akane
Kino
- The Wrestler
- Election 2
- Kidulthood
- Adulthood
Fernsehen
- The Apprentice
- Derren Brown- An Evening of Wonders
vershieden
- Using the MacDonalds coupons,
- My gf bringing moments of incredible insanity,
- Phoning random friends and for them to not know it was me,
- Skimming stones failure, the stones are shite in Bayern! What is a man to do?
- TU-NA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and the two Turkish best friends,
- Shoes!!!!!!!!!!!! and loads of nice clothing I can't afford,
- the man selling bad roses with a log tied to his leg
- seeing boats that could never travel the world and feeling sorry for them
- finally getting my photographing back on,
- My mate Newman cos hes a bastard just like me,
- Making sushi for the girl,
Talking out loud is something I'm not famed to do, but this last few weeks I've been out there seeking advice, getting to know and finding out the things I need to know. I suppose this is me making sure I have something else out of all of this.
But in the end I'm just happy to get the support of my friends, family, colleagues and my girl. People call me selfish, but this is really a means to an ends.
Love you all my beautiful eggs.
Building the future and keeping the past alive are one in the same thing.
musik
- Screaming Infidelities- Dashboard Confessional
- Emergency 72- Turin Brakes
- Horse for I- Bat For Lashes
Kino
- Star Trek
- High Fidelity
- 2046
- Frost/Nixon
- Fast and the Furious 3
Fernsehen
vershieden
- Being accused of knowing Wong Kar Wai and for him to make a film about me.
- Not having to buy food for a week,
- Getting MacDonalds coupons.
- Finding the three eating machines of Gary, Po Han and Judy.
- The girl coming to watch football with me.
- Always sharing my bier.
- Another new watch but from the airport woman this time around.
- My dearest Panda, she keeps me sane.
When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.
Chapter 13, verse 11
I reread some of the things I put up on here, the biggest change has been the absence of malice, my hatred of people and things slipped through the cracks of life. I gave up some of those childish ways and realised there was something better.
For all my anxieties and issues, I realised I'm the luckiest man in the world.
I wasn't sure why I was feeling a bit emotional after the second beer. Maybe they had added something into it but it was getting to me. A few minutes before I was at a table of colleagues laughing and joking, knowing this was the loneliness moment in my life. I flick at the phone and send some random texts to people that care.
A few minutes into the future, I'm approaching my flat racking my brains, my mind is filled with images I wanted to show her, it was filled with words I wanted to tell her. In the dark I see someone sitting on the steps shivering, I get closer and she looks up and I sit down next to her. We wrap each others arms around each other, the words I try to say don't actually escape, they simply croak into the cold air. No one is around to notice the tears streaming down my face.
It's these moments I fight to live for.
versheiden
- Yorkshire Tea even with Germs milch is not far from the truth,
- still not getting my chicken on,
- getting my curry on,
- Foster, Baker and Newman for being such good eggs,
- My amazing girlfriend, my best friend, my lover, the girl that brings a lot of smiles to this pandas chubby face.
