is it hopeless and forlorn?

A song taught me to never regret anything in life, but another song tells me I should think about the girl from the north country. I'm inclined to think more about the girl from the southern state.

It's easy to strain your thoughts over someone you fall in love with, how much you want to be with them, except maybe you hate each other, the distance is too long or simply that the world moved on and one of you stood still. I find it's harder to live with the pain of what ifs and wherefores, a click of the finger the choices in front of you are lost.

Rewind a year and maybe life would be different. Regret makes you think like that, I'm glad for all the things that happened the way they did this year. Hope makes you stronger.

Love you all.

The kindness of our proprietor

I pulled it into my lungs and it stroked me all the way down patting me on the back. Nicotine chocolate tasting smoke, a coffee was what I really needed to keep me warm. The smoke danced in the light as if it was some Japanese kabuki play in the middle New York on a mid fall day. I left the cigarette in my mouth and reset my tie pin. My tie was a dark blue; it should have matched my suit, but in my morning rush I ran out of the front door without thinking maybe I should have gone for the other tie pin to the left. My finger nails were yellowed and untidy, I looked up hoping for someone to drop a pound coin into my hat. I put it on instead and walked along the embankment against the Thames water.

I finished my cigarette and threw the stub into the water; the short sizzle as it hit the surface to die out, was drowned out by the police man murmuring to himself. I smiled at him and he walked off when his partner had arrived. They marched like courting geese towards Waterloo Station.

musik

• Superman- Goldfinger
• 99 Red Balloons- Goldfinger
• Shiola- Murder By Death
• School- Nirvana
• Drain You- Nirvana
• Hiphopopotamus Vs. Rhymenoceros- Flight of the Conchords
• The Most Beautiful Girl (In The Room)- Flight of the Conchords
• The Boy With The Arab Strap- Belle & Sebastian
• Art Bitch- CSS
  

kino

• The Grudge

buch

• Old Kyoto
• Dragon Syndicates

videospiel

• Gran Turismo 5: Prologue spec III

vershieden

• oi resh accents, especially if girls have them, Colin Farell can go feck himself and his commands
• windy walks with multiple people this week
• messing Faye up with my ideas of how I fall in love
• getting invited to curry nights with people from work I've borrowed equipment off
• surprising Lily on the phone about how quick I can answer it
• getting my fight back